Witness Consciousness~ The Beginning of Finding Joy

I was taught the concept to witness consciousness; of being completely honest and aware of myself in college but it wasn’t until I was working at AWAIC (Abused Women’s Aide in Crisis) that I got it! I finally understood what it means to be honest, 100% honest with myself. I witnessed myself for the first time from a third person perspective, as my boss saw me (bless her heart!) like a mouse in my pocket.

I was working, impressing everyone around (as far as I could see), it wasn’t until my boss, Jeanne, called me on it, that I saw it for what it was! I wonder how many other people in my life saw it, but didn’t have the nerve to tell me what they were seeing!

I was good at what I did. I knew the material, I had the attention of the crowd. I educated the boys in the Juvenile Detention Center about the devastating effects of domestic violence. I talked about the cause, the pain that both the victims and perpetrators were feeling, and set goals for the boys.

My goal was to help them get out of the cycle of abusive behavior and heal from the abuse they’d experienced. I knew full well that most of these boys were abused and abusive.

Jeanne called me to her office after the engagement to debrief. She asked me how I felt about the class. Of course I told her I thought it went well. The boys continued to pay attention right until the end. I was sure they must have gotten information at least in their ears, it would take many more times (if ever) until it became a part of their lives.

Then the blast hit. Jeanne said, “It looked to me like you were flirting with the boys.”

I couldn’t believe it! I wouldn’t do that! I was 25 years old! These boys were still in high school! I was a happily married woman, with 3 children! I would never even think about such a thing!

That is the truth! I would never have consciously thought of such a thing! As we talked about it, I couldn’t deny it! The way I commanded a crowd of hormonal boys was to keep their attention through my mannerisms; my jokes, my smiles and an occasional wink. As I felt the discomfort washing over me, sitting in the office with my boss, I was so embarrassed!

I felt so guilty! I couldn’t help it, I started to cry! (Later, I learned that shedding tears is another coping strategy). I had been so proud of myself, teaching these boys things that I was sure they had never heard before, (another thing that I learned, they knew too much and how to hide it).

I witnessed this consciousness, this awareness of what I was doing, being able to be honest with myself for the first time.

This skill has allowed me to learn and grow from life’s experiences and find joy in all my circumstances. I am continually growing, mastering my skills and I am honestly learning, as Eckhart Tolle said, all about ‘Witnessing Consciousness’. You can get a copy of Eckhart Tolle’s book from Amazon right here: The Power of Now: A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment

Have you heard of Eckhart Tolle or read any of his books? Have you spent time in meditation and introspection? Tell me about your experiences witnessing yourself in action!

Linda

About our Co-Founder: With a bachelors in Social Work, Linda is 53 years old, happily married with eight children and 17 grandchildren. Diagnosed with MS in 1995 and now having accepted and truly embraced her new reality, Linda has created MSrelief.com. She is dedicated to proving that joy can be chosen while living with Multiple Sclerosis. Linda specializes in helping others, especially those with MS attain the lifestyle, independence and happiness amid living with MS.

17 Comments:

  1. Honestly, I haven’t heard of Eckhart Tolle. It is my first time to know him. If it wouldn’t be a problem to you, what are the books he wrote in which you are reading?

    • Candice,
      I’ve only read one of Eckhart Tolle’s books “The Power of Now” and I’ve listened to him on tape too. I really learned the ability to focus and concentrate on what is taking place in our lives at the moment instead of letting ourselves get distracted by things around us. I need to take a refresher course! Since I started working online I allow myself to get incredibly distracted, big time!
      Linda

  2. I really learned the ability to focus and concentrate on what is taking place in our lives at the moment instead of letting ourselves get distracted by things around us.Nice sharing of post..

  3. Hi linda glad to see this video you share in here, this is my first time to know about this even if I dont know what is talking about in the first but I still finish it.

  4. Hi Linda, I have never heard of Eckhart Tolle. Maybe I should start researching this since I am interested to read whats on this book… Thank you for sharing this post. I am hit by focus and concentration. Thank you for making me realize…

  5. Thanks Linda for letting us know about this…The video is really big help…

  6. Thank you for sharing this kind of link.. I am interested to read whats on this book…

    • Tana,
      You won’t be sorry if you read Eckhart’s books! It’s like I always say, I’m a Christian to the core and eternal truth is eternal truth!

      And I love Amazon! They give us the option of the most inexpensive books! And I have never bought a used one that wasn’t in ‘like new’ condition!
      Linda

  7. You hit the nail on the head, too many of us life our lives doing things to please others and suffer because they are not honest with themselves. These people destroy their own peace of mind.

    • Henry,
      I just watched a video on Facebook about this very thing! I’m going to post the video here! I appreciate what you’re saying!
      Linda

  8. As you mentioned sometimes to really be honest with yourself you have to listen to what other say about you. You shoud not just hear what one person has to say but a few and then decide whether you should take action to improve.

    • Mark,
      I agree with you, we need to listen to what others say about us but first we must recognize our value. After we know we are diamonds in the rough, we can really hear what others are saying. If we see areas of needed growth, we can change our habits and become polished!
      Linda

  9. Eckhart Tolle’s book ‘A New Earth’ was a very influential work. In it he talks about the space between the thoughts, and the detached observer, the witness. This awareness grows with practice as we become less identified with our thoughts. The key is meditation.

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