Eating Disorders ~ I was Born with Skinny Genes

I was born with skinny genes. But like many of you, I understand the roller coaster emotions of weight loss and diets. Even though I have always been thin, I didn’t always see myself that way. I spent much of my teen age years reading teen magazines and watching television. I didn’t feel attractive.

I thought  I was fat.

I was like so many young women struggling with eating issues. I’d determine to be good and stop eating, virtually starving myself for days. Then, my self-control would crumble and I’d binge eat, stuffing my face with any delicious, fattening food I could find.

In short, I’d eat myself sick.

Embarrassed by my behavior, I’d resolve to gain control over my eating. I’d starve myself again to make up for my embarrassment. I’d successfully contain my cravings for a few days before I’d cave in again and head for the pantry.

On and on this cycle went. My self-esteem dipped lower and lower as I failed to control my eating. It seemed the more I tried to control food, the more food controlled me. I felt trapped and hopeless as I struggled to manage my weight and feel like I looked good.

I longed to leave the endless spiral behind and walk in freedom. I longed to control my eating. I longed to be healthy in mind, body and spirit. I longed to release the real me and let go of my bondage to food. And yet, no matter what I tried, I couldn’t find the keys to control and freedom.

After difficult emotional work, I gained enough control that I wasn’t binge eating anymore. It wasn’t until years later that I had total control of my eating.

It was then that I thought that maybe I literally ate myself sick.

When I went in to see the Dr. last month, for my MRI results, I told her I was going on a “Medication Holiday”. I am following Ivy Larson and her Gold Coast Cure. I said I finally have control over my eating, I’m choosing to eat a very healthy diet.

My doctor questioned, “You have control over your eating?” as if that was a given for everyone.

You can order Ivy Larson’s book right here. to get started eating in a manner that will optimize your health.

I still have active MS even after controlling my diet and eating like Ivy Larson but I am healthy and happy and have peace where food is concerned.

Are you in control of your eating?  Have you reached the point in your life that you can choose when and what you’re going to eat for your enjoyment and health?

Linda

About our Co-Founder: With a bachelors in Social Work, Linda is 53 years old, happily married with eight children and 17 grandchildren. Diagnosed with MS in 1995 and now having accepted and truly embraced her new reality, Linda has created MSrelief.com. She is dedicated to proving that joy can be chosen while living with Multiple Sclerosis. Linda specializes in helping others, especially those with MS attain the lifestyle, independence and happiness amid living with MS.

6 Comments:

  1. Great topic, Linda! It’s a multi-layered issue – one that often needs some outside guidance and objectivity. Do you use a mindful eating approach now?

    • Dawn,
      Yes I do! I would love for you to post information here on MSrelief about your “mindful eating” approach! I start everyday with a green drink then today I had a crust-less spinach quiche for breakfast~ did you give me this recipe? I am honestly not doing a ton of cooking these days but this one I couldn’t resist! And I don’t know what I did with your spinach soup recipe, will you please send it to me again?
      Linda

      • Hey Linda, what do you think about the topic of this month’s webinar being about Mindful Eating?

        • PERFECT! Now I need to talk to Trish and learn how to change the settings so that once a commenter is approved they can leave a comment without waiting for approval!
          Linda

  2. Well, One thing I would highly recommend is that one should avoid oily food and also heavy food.
    One must avoid these food and bring in more sporting activities in your daily routine to curb weight gain.
    Include more green vegetables and fruits in your diet to remain healthy and fit.

    • Vicky,
      You are so right! We all need to focus on the greens and daily exercise is a must! Thanks for taking the time to comment!
      Linda

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