I thought Louise Hay was right when she said, “I KNOW if they (those with chronic illness) are WILLING to do the mental work of releasing and forgiving, almost everything can be healed.” Following Louise Hay my entire life I used self-talk and emotional clearing to live an incredibly healthy life.
I thought Louise Hay was right until I was diagnosed with MS.
For whatever reason, MS is still active in my life.
Perhaps I haven’t done the right things long enough, maybe continuing the positive self talk, living in the Now as Eckhart Tolle teaches, and seeing the goodness in myself and all others will eventually prove Louise Hay to be teaching the truth.
Or maybe a cure will be found.
I don’t know but maybe my happiness amid this dreaded condition is because I have done the emotional work and mastered the self-discipline necessary. I have gone through the stages of grief and accepted and embraced my new reality.
I’ve lived joyfully until the first week in December. I had a flair then pneumonia. This month has been another month of learning and much emotional pain. I thought I had already learned what Eckhart Tolle taught; the key is to quiet the mind.
My lack of peace came from the fear of the future (becoming unable to get out of bed) and longing for the past (triggered by my children visiting for Christmas).
As we continue to study and practice quieting our minds, Eckhart says we will be shown how to free ourselves from the enslavement of the mind. Tolle explains there is “intense conscience presence in the now.”
The greater part of human pain is non-acceptance, some form of unconscious resistance to what is.
Through my MS journey I have learned many things. December 2012 I learned to accept the best and plan for the worst.
Being the queen of denial, I didn’t want to accept that I might someday need in-home health care so when the time came, I had no idea where to go for help.
Monday I have an appointment with the local home health care organization to find out what is available if I need it again. I will continue to expect the best, but I will prepare for the worst, in this case, needing in-home health care.
Reading Eckhart Toole and the Power of Now helped me once again. December, 2012 is confirmation that life’s experiences will be repeated in different forms until the lesson is learned.