Through these tears I told you that I am truly happy. Even with the sorrow, I honestly am joyful. I feel like I’m doing everything right; I have let go of past pain, I’ve forgiven myself and others, I’ve created and repeated wonderful affirmations, I’ve surrounded myself with people whom I love and love me, I love people without judgment and assume they don’t judge me, I have taken control of my eating and filled my diet with wonderful, delicious, healthy food, I exercise regularly, get enough sleep (most nights), I have embraced what I can do and I have found joy in my new reality.
I haven’t felt the need to cry for over a year. As I feel myself getting stronger I thought it would look like I’m getting close to my goal of being able to walk without a walker. For the past month I set the short-term goal of being able to stand without assistance from a sitting position on the floor. I know I’m getting closer to that goal because I can reach to the floor to pick up something (holding on to something for balance) then stand up.
Seeing the reality of where I am even with all that I’m doing hurts.
There is nothing to do but keep on keeping on, and I will! I’ll cry until I get this post written then I’ll get back to work! I love this MS blogging community, there’s Judy, Messy Stuff, Multiple Miss, Jennifer, Nicole and Lisa just to name a few. My friends from the local chapter of the National MS Society, Stephanie, Bill and Helen have also helped me find joy in my New Reality. I told you by the time I was finished writing this post I’d be past the tears. I’m sure tears will come back again but I’ll continue to keep on and try to help others find joy!
I’d love to hear about your life. Are you working with a Physical Therapist or Personal Trainer setting goals for improvement? Have you embraced your New Reality? How are you handling it all? Tell me in the comments below.
ps. I forgot to tell you I’m also doing daily exercise with a band and ball!