MSrelief ~ May 2011 Walking Update

An emotional roller coaster, that’s what life with MS is! My daughter Lilli was behind the camera for this update a few minutes before church on Sunday. It was fun because I’m more secure in front of the camera than I was when I started blogging so it only took a few minutes, one take. 🙂

We were right on time, I simply (as if any movement is simple with MS) needed to slip on my skirt for church and we were out of here. I wasn’t feeling stressed or uptight, just eager to get to church.

When I started down the stairs I was feeling weak. I pressed on and when I was to the downstairs hall, on my way to the garage, all of a sudden my legs buckled and I knelt down on the carpet. No pain, just surprise. I tried to stand up but my legs wouldn’t work. I asked Lilli to run up and get dad. He lifted me into a standing position, asking if I wanted to stay home. “No” I told him, “I want to go to church!”

Weird! Emotional roller-coaster for sure! A few months ago, when I was in this exact spot in the hallway, I was cleaning something off the floor and I couldn’t stand up. That’s when I realized it wasn’t only that messages weren’t getting sent from my brain to my legs, it was also my lack of strength. Now after a month of exercising, I feel myself stronger. Buckling to my knees, was definitely MS’s doing. I know that not being able to get up was only partly the MS.

I’m amazed at how unnoticeable the loss of strength was. When I was going through my first year of exacerbations (7th year of the disease), I was in training to be a respite provider for Mat-Su Services for Children and Adults.

While learning the proper way to pick up a person if need be, I had to pick up a 50lb box from the floor and carry it across the room and set it on the desk. I was able to do it, I had the strength. In between the exacerbations, the signals were getting down the nerves to my legs. I’m amazed that over the past 9 years I’ve allowed myself to get into this condition!

My goal for the month of May, God willing, is to stand up from the floor. If I can’t it will not be my fault. I’ll exercise to build the strength to lift this body up from the floor. I’ll ask my personal trainer, Holly Fulford-Jeffrey for specific exercises I need to add to my list.

Showing you my updates is accountability. Thank you!

What are you doing to stay fit and healthy? I’d love to hear; maybe I can help you with accountability!


About our Co-Founder: With a bachelors in Social Work, Linda is 53 years old, happily married with eight children and 17 grandchildren. Diagnosed with MS in 1995 and now having accepted and truly embraced her new reality, Linda has created She is dedicated to proving that joy can be chosen while living with Multiple Sclerosis. Linda specializes in helping others, especially those with MS attain the lifestyle, independence and happiness amid living with MS.


  1. Dear Linda,

    How right you are! Imagine the largest muscles of your body not getting regular use for 9 years! So if you work this month to strengthen those muscles, you may have to also work several more months because they are large muscles! Go for it! Do It! You can!

    • Beth,
      Thank you for visiting my blog! I appreciate you saying so, you know about exercise and muscle building. As I wrote that goal about what to accomplish this month, I was wondering if I was shooting too high. We’ll see, I’ll give it my best! I’m extremely happy that I have hope!

  2. Wow Linda you have an amazing attitude. It must be a total roller coaster ride as you say. Given I had an uncle who stopped being able to walk in his mid 30s with MS I think it is wonderful that you are able to walk with the walker and stick and sometimes with out them.

    I would think if you can feel your legs getting stronger they are and with your attitude I feel like you will get there.

    You inspire me Linda


    • Sue,
      Thanks for watching my progress! If you’ve read any of my replies, I tell everyone that I love hearing the positive comments! It’s what helps me to continue on through the tough times! Don’t stop following me and commenting!!

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