And I’m not walking without a walker! (I know that you Louise Hay followers – I’m one of them – are saying, “If you keep saying you can’t walk without a walker you’ll always be stuck there.” – just know, I’m only repeating that statement for the readability of this post.)
I’ve done everything I can think of! I’ve tried every available pharmaceutical, almost every alternative therapy, eaten a healthful diet, done emotional work; EFT, exercised, visualized, affirmed, introspected, prayed, meditated…
And I’m still not walking without a walker!
I know with all my heart that we are here in this life for a purpose and all our experiences are for our good. I know that my heavenly father could heal me in a blink of an eye…
And yet I’m not walking without a walker!
I recognize what multiple sclerosis, active MS, feels like. What I’m experiencing is active MS, again. Not every minute, but throughout the day, my head seems foggy, I’m not thinking clearly, my vision is sort of blurry, I have numb, almost achy fingers and toes, and undeniable fatigue to the point of not feeling like lifting my arms up to type on the computer or legs off the ground to walk. I don’t feel MS fatigue all day, every day, it’s on and off throughout the day.
I tell you these things not to make you feel sorry for me, but to help you understand that it is not as easy as it sounds, to relearn to walk – as easy as I thought it would be.
Why am I not walking without a walker?!
A couple months ago I wrote a post about defining a new reality. When I wrote it, I was feeling very focused on healing, believing I would be walking without a walker by now.
I’ve concluded that I need to stop broadcasting my walking updates! I have no idea what will happen in my future. (Does anybody, really?)
I have a great life and I’m happy! I’ll continue to reach out to others and help those around me realize they can have a happy life, no matter what their external circumstances are!
If we can’t change our circumstances, we can change our attitude!
I won’t stop exercising! In fact Chris McCargar sent me some new exercise equipment, the Beach Body 10 Minute Trainer! I’ve gotten busy with this already!