My name is Trish and I’m a food addict. There, I said it, I said it online, and and now the world knows! <“As if they didn’t already!” my nasty little gremlin says as I flick him off my shoulder>. I became consciously aware of being addicted to food a few years ago but that didn’t make me ready to do anything about it. I’ve been on hundreds of “diets” over my lifetime, some led to a respectable amount of weight loss, others less. But all of them were eventually followed by a regaining of the weight plus more. Can you relate? I couldn’t keep it off because up till now, I’ve never addressed the motivation for the behavior, only masked it temporarily from time to time over the ears.
Like most of us, I put off tackling the issue head on until my back was against the wall. Feb 22 of last year (’11) I had to have a quadruple bypass. The surgery was scary enough but knowing that both my parents had needed to have the same procedure at a young age as well, left me feeling completely powerless initially. Genetics are genetics right? At 47 years old, I was by far the youngest person on the cardiac floor the week I was in the hospital. Add to that the fact that I have MS, and things just aren’t lookin’ very pretty for me health wise.
And then of course there’s the fact that my parents both had diabetes, high blood pressure and cholesterol issues. Ditto, ditto and ditto. It became painfully clear to me last year while I was recovering from my surgery that I was deeply entrenched on a path that wouldn’t lead to a happy place. Both of my parents were gone before they reached 70. My mom was only 62 and my dad was 67. And my mom’s parents didn’t make it out of their 60’s either due to heart disease.
About 2 years before I had my heart bypass I’d initiated the process of getting approved for weight loss surgery by our provincial health care system; the gastric bypass procedure was the one that I was shooting for. I’d been through the whole year-long process for getting qualified as a candidate and my surgery was booked for Feb 1, 2011. Imagine that! I had to cancel my gastric bypass to accommodate my cardiac bypass!
Since my heart surgery I’ve had many months to consider whether the timing of the heart problems wasn’t meant to derail the weight loss surgery. Being open minded to that possibility, I became more willing to look at my food addiction for what it really is, a life-long unconscious strategy for mood-altering and emotional soothing that turned into a deeply ingrained (right down to the neuropathways) deadly lifestyle.
When I met Dawn and learned about her style of coaching, as well as her own experience with significant sustained weight loss, she was inspiring to me. Then Linda suggested that I have Dawn coach me and we go live with my journey on MSrelief.com. At first I thought the idea was outright invasive. But the more I thought about how this journey could heal me, the more I wanted to share the experience so that perhaps others can get a glimpse of that healing process as well.
Here is a video of our first open discussion about it…
Dawn and I will be meeting online every 1 to 2 weeks over the next few months for my coaching sessions, which we will record and post on our ChooseJoyTV channel here at MSrelief.com on a regular basis along the way with my weekend weigh-ins. Reality TV, including the good, bad and the ugly that’s sure to come out during my coaching sessions… I’m not sure if this has ever been done before…
So, it is with a very open heart and no small amount of trepidation that I embark on this journey with Dawn, and with you. I look forward to your feedback along the way!
Till next time, take self-care seriously & God bless!
Conceive, Believe, then Receive… because you can!